I’ve never lived alone. Ever. Even in my college years, I always had suite-mates (not roommates because sharing a room with someone after the age of 8 is sick). I never went on vacation alone and I definitely never had my own place. I have our apartment to myself for the whole week and I really don’t know how I feel about it.
On one side, I have lots of freedom. I don’t have to cook dinner. Actually, I don’t have to cook at all! In fact, I’m sitting here, eating a breakfast consisting of Flavor Blasted Goldfish (Xplosive Pizza, in case you’re wondering).
I don’t have to watch football.
Me: Who’s playing?
Paul: The Redskins and the Eagles.
Me: I hate the Eagles.
Paul: You do? Why?
Me: Because there was a guy at the hockey game wearing an Eagles sweatshirt and hat and he annoyed me. Plus Michael Vick is on that team so….yeah. And I like saying Redskins.
It can also be lonely too. I obviously have friends I can spend time with, but it’s not the same. No cuddles, no stupid inside jokes, no sharing blankets on the couch.
It’s weird because I am pretty independent. I don’t mind going to movies alone, shopping alone, or eating out by myself. I also decided to go to England for 3 years without knowing a soul. A lot of people would never do those things.
Being alone is such a weird feeling. You only have to think about yourself. I remember talking to this girl (I say girl, because she was around my age and I hate being referred to as a woman. It sounds so old!) who was giving me a pedicure and she said that both her parents had died and she didn’t have any siblings. There were probably times in her life that she felt like the loneliest person in the world. It would be so hard to be in her position. But I believe that people are only given situations that they can handle. It may seem tough to me, but she seemed okay with it. I think she was a stronger person because of it. Meanwhile, I’m talking about how I don’t have someone to share the couch with. Normal.
This week, I might watch some movies that I’ve never seen, cook something I’ve never cooked (out of boredom and hunger) and go somewhere I haven’t been yet. I’ll keep you posted on my weekly adventures. But don’t get your hopes up.